Pain, Death And Knowledge

  • How To Make Fewer Comparisons
    What Steps Did I Take To Make Fewer Comparisons? I Recognized That Everyone Is Flawed And Imperfect: I believe that the major cause of my inferiority complex was my inability to recognize that everyone is flawed and perfection is impossible. I wanted to change a lot of things about my life because I felt that these features and characteristics made me weird. But in reality, they made me unique. Everyone is flawed. I Helped Others. There is nothing better and more satisfying than reaching out and helping people. I believe that what matters at the end of everything is not what you have or your accomplishments, it’s about who you have helped and what you have given back to this world.
  • Why I Applied To Minerva University( The School With The Lowest Acceptance Rate In The World). Do I Think I Would Get In?
    What Makes Minerva Different From Other Universities?  I believe Minerva is the best university in the world. To begin with, Minerva adopts a global experience. Is Minerva Accredited?  Yes. Minerva is accredited by the Western Senior College And University Commission Association Of Schools And Colleges (WASC). How Did I Discover Minerva University? The first time I heard about Minerva was in 11th grade. I had just been accepted to EducationUSA Abuja. A Minervian was a member of the group and she was sharing her story, of how she was accepted to Minerva despite her low SAT score and Waec result. What Inspired Me To Apply To Minerva? Then she said, “You should apply to Minerva, I think it’s a school for people like you..” For people like me? I laughed. And I asked her “Me? Minerva? With My Carton Brain?” Minerva is everything I have ever wanted. A chance to liberate me, a place to grow and develop my talents. One thing was clear to me after reading through their website for over 2 hours that night. MINERVA IS INTERESTED IN MY STORY. And that’s why I applied to this institution. I submitted my application yesterday. Yes! Congratulations to me. I finished my application early this month but I had to wait for my counselor to upload my documents. Overall, I think Minerva’s application process is interesting and unique. It provides an opportunity for you to define yourself and what matters to you. It helps you to critically think about different issues that are absent in most admission processes. The application process allows you to open up yourself to the admissions committee and I believe this is Minerva’s greatest strength.  Do I Think I Would Get In? I don’t know! As I have mentioned a thousand times, Minerva is unique from other schools. The only person you have to compete with for a spot at Minerva is yourself. Once you have exceeded their bar, you will get in with financial aid. What Is My Advise To Those Applying To Minerva? Before you apply to Minerva, ask yourself these questions: Why do I want to attend Minerva? Am I ready to be rigorously challenged? Am I an extrovert(I will make another post regarding this)? Do I love to travel? Good luck to everyone applying to Minerva and other colleges. I know this period can be so stressful and exhausting, but be patient and work hard. God will do it for you! 
  • How To Seek And Build Knowledge From Good Sources
    1. Be Curious: Having a curious mind or being curious is the first step in gaining knowledge. A curious mind is filled with insightful questions and actively seeks answers. Take a look at your personality or reflect and see if you are naturally curious about the things around you, your community or anything you happen to come across. The questions you ask determine the kind of answers you receive and they lead you to the path of learning. When a curious mind hits a wall, they seek knowledge and when they find that knowledge, they melt down that wall. Therefore, curiosity is the road to lifelong learning. Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find.
  • It’s My Birthday Today!
    It’s my birthday today! 365 days have passed since the last time I celebrated my last birthday. It still feels like yesterday and I cannot describe how fast time flies.  Within the last 365 days, I have cried, laughed, danced, rejoiced, mourned, and learned crucial life lessons. But most importantly, I have become a better person and I have taken a step towards my life goals. This is an appreciation post for the life I have lived for the past 1 year. 
  • The Nothingness Of Nothing
    The nothingness of nothing We come into this world with nothing Our purpose, to make something out of nothing The end, we leave with nothing.

She can’t tell you how much pain she bears because she is chained to them.

She lifts up her hands but she is realising that no one is coming to her rescue.

The truth is hidden and nobody cares for the common child.

The chains are tightening on the innocent tiring hearts.

She carries her treasure in her hand but the chains are locked, keeping them apart.

She cries like a new born lad and holds up her heron bone wrist.

Who will come to her rescue? Oh poor generation! No one? Because we are cruel and doomed!!!


Danger or death? Darkness or light?

Don’t shiver in the face of my darkness.

Let it wrap you inside it’s dangerous cloak.

There is nothing to see or hear in its chamber.

No one to hurt you except the dangerous creatures that lurk in the dark.

Nothing to run from except death itself. It is a safe hell.

Will you fear the light? It reveals your true self.

The one you have rejected and despised.

But the darkness I offer deceives, it blinds and lures you to your most wanted desires.

Yet, it hides grave dangers in it’s deep.

Where there’s light, they will always be shadows.

But my darkness conceals the very shadows you run from.

But what it takes from you may over shadow your life.

When my darkness reaches for you, blinds your vision with it’s deceitful painted hands, it is too late to run.

Your fate is doomed. I ask again. Danger or death? Darkness or light?


1. It is slowly fading away. Knowledge?

Yes. Like smoke into thin air, everything we know is gradually becoming a myth.

It’s rare to find true wisdom and lasting knowledge.

Especially when you end up like the pages of a book.

Torn, forgotten and blown away by the careless wind.

2.  Preserved knowledge will eventually be forgotten.

You should let go with no guidance and structure.

Do not keep it locked away in a cell while your potentials and worth is fading away.

Let your knowledge seek wisdom. Let it fly like a bird all across the globe.

For true knowledge is matched with equal wisdom.


One thought on “Pain, Death And Knowledge

  1. Pain, Death, And Knowledge… Great Job! Dear Annabel

    For Approaching These Very Real Salient Features of NoW As

    Now is All that is Now Is Practically God For All We Experience NoW as

    Now May Be Salted And Peppered With Even Unrelenting Torturous Pain
    As I’ve Surely Experienced The Actual Worst Suicide Pain Known to Humankind

    Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia From Wake to Sleep For 66 Months Not Only
    What Felt like A Dentist Drill in my Right Eye and Ear that No Drug Would

    Touch Yet Also An Invisible one Where No One is Gonna Wanna Hear Ya
    Whining About Wanting to Die to Escape From A Pain No One Can See

    or Feel

    Yet You
    Yes ONLY
    YOU it’s A Hard
    Feeling to Feel Like
    the Devil in Hell With No
    Control Lost From A Memory
    of What A Feeling of A Smile Ever Felt

    Yes, Just no Reference Point Out of Hell Yet

    Indeed After 19 Years of School, 3 Degrees,
    33 Years on Active Payroll Eventually Higher Pay Retiring
    Early From A Total of 19 Mostly Stress Related Disorders
    From 11 Years of Chronic to Acute Fight or Flight Stress the
    Last 2 Of 11 Years then too Where i Already Was Dealing with
    Fibromyalgia Generalized Pain and Fatigue Through my Entire

    Body And Even Before the Worst Pain Started Peaking in 2008
    Still Undiagnosed Sjogren’s Syndrome Was Drying Up my Ability
    To Make Tears And Attacking the Nerves in my Feet Where i Distinctly
    Remember Watching the Movie “Happy Feet” in 2006 Not Even Able

    To Touch The Theater Floor Without Severe Foot Pain on the Bottom
    of my Feet Wondering Indeed would i ever Have “Happy Feet” Again
    Then Yet of Course Not Realizing i Would Have a Vocation of Happy
    Feet Eventually Public Dancing Now 16,144 Miles in 101 Months
    As Indeed Some Folks Treated me And Named me as Legend,
    Famous, Hero, And Even Metro Area Icon As of As Late As

    Now mY FRiEnD Quite A Change Indeed Doing Heaven
    For Free; Yes, Without Even a Name or A Penny Made

    MAN as basically the Young Folks Still Cheer
    For me WHeREver i Go even if i am Not Dancing

    Now At All as they Just Capture A Photo of
    me Standing Close to the Buying
    Aisle of Whatever Store i am
    Currently Dancing in for
    the Autotelic Bliss
    in Meditative
    Flow that Brings Truly
    Nirvana, Samadhi, Satori,
    Prana; Yes, the Tao in Flow;
    Yes, Generally SPeaKinG the
    Kingdom of Heaven Within As one
    Becomes the Master of Regulating Emotions
    Integrating Senses Moving into A Higher Level
    of Consciousness with Laser Focus And Imagination;
    Yes, Creativity Springing into Action With Endless Positive
    Energy in the Flow of Now mY FRiEnD No Different Really than
    The Experience of Writing the Longest Long Form EPiC Bible Poem in the History
    of Humankind NoW As i am Eternally Doing NoW As Well on this Page now; Yes!
    Moving Past 10.1 MiLLioN Words NoW in 101 Months; Yes, NoW A Steady
    Average of 100,000 Words A Month And Around 3,300 Words A Day
    or So And Even in A “Small” ‘8th New Testament” Named “Depth of
    The Story” That is Now the Number One Search Result with Quotes
    on A Google Search; Yes, Around 33,000 Words on Average on Page
    of a Solo Thread on the “Wrong Planet Website” Over the Course of
    40 Pages Equaling around 1.3 MiLLioN Words in 17 Months of Effort
    There Where i Freely Discuss Aspects of Politics, Philosophy, And Religion
    Fully And Continue to Do so Posting Something THere Most Every Day too

    Yet Really Nothing Different Than What i am Doing HeaR As this Will Be Part
    of that For The Wisdom i Share with others i Have GAINED THROGH ACTUAL




    Now my FRiEnD As Truly we All Perceive
    Our UNiVeRSES Differently Based on Nature,
    Nurture, Environment And How We Come to Use or
    Do Not Use All Our Hidden Human Potentials Now For Real

    In All the Unpacking of Epigenetic Potential And Neuroplasicity
    of Re-Wiring Our Mind And Body Both in Positive And Negative

    Ways Sadly too Depending or Not on the Challenges of Life Now

    SMiles mY FRiEnD Does the Rose Shed Tears Now When Beautiful
    Flowers Wilt; Well of Course Not As There is Another Seed of Beauty
    to Spread Another Flower to Create Even More Colorful And Sublimely
    Beautiful Than Before And True Fall Brings Winter Fertilizing Spring
    Green And Summer Perhaps Year Around Newer Flowers Now of


    too mY FRiEnD

    For True if the Rose

    Were to Languish Now
    in Despair of the One Flower
    Wilting What A Stick And Carrot

    Life Will Be Instead of Just Riding

    The Wave of Life As Life Naturally
    Moves Up and Down Now As Tides
    Go Out and Return Again And

    Moon Reflects

    Sun At Night
    Fulfilling One More

    Promise of Breaking Dawn
    mY FRiEnD Whether Covered
    With Clouds or Not Sun Still Shines…

    And Then (Now) There is Buy and Sell Life That
    Supersedes Human Inhaling Peace Exhaling
    LoVE iN JoY oF LiGHT iN More of A Play of
    Life Together Giving, Sharing, Caring, Healing

    In a Human Way of Foraging the Day for Subsistence
    And Dancing The Night Together in Drum Beats That Bring
    Autotelic Flow of Meditative Contemplative Bliss The Same As

    It Does Now

    For Those

    Of Us Now Who
    Do Remember to
    DO What it Takes
    to Partake of Real
    Heaven Within Now
    At Best ToGeTHeR Sure

    Singing in the Choir At
    Church Uplifting Songs
    That Create Our Glow

    Or Just This Dance And
    Song of Words That is Poetry
    Free of the Soul mY FRiEnD

    Just Heaven Flourishing All the
    Way Around As Simply Spreading
    This Joy For those With “EYes and
    Ears” Enough to Feel and Sense Heaven For Real
    Now Yet again my FRiEnD There is the Faux World New
    of Buy and Sell Things Life Where Stuff Becomes More

    Important Than A Heaven Within to Give, Share, Care,
    Heal In JoY oF LiGHT Inhaling Peace Exhaling Love Set Free

    It All Depends on Which
    Life/Love We Strive to Attain
    And Maintain NoW As Sticks
    And Carrots And Buy And Sell Stuff;

    Or Simply More of a Life of K.I.S.S. Yes
    Keep it Simple Silly Do Inhale Peace Exhale LoVE Now

    Yet of course in a World Where God And Stuff is Money This is a
    REAL Test of ‘Job’ And Bigger Camels Than Ever Trying to Squeeze
    Through A More Tiny Opening of The EYes oF Needles
    of Heaven For Real In almost a Biblical Way For Most

    ALL of US

    To Escape

    The God of
    Money and
    Stuff to Set ourselves
    Free That May Mean

    Making A Deal With That
    Real Devil until We Come
    to Be Truly Free AS Heaven is Now For Real…

    i Surely Spent 53 Years, Overall in the Other places
    of Purgatory through Hell my FRiEnD of Living Death,
    Pain, And Numb Yet the Wisdom is Truly A Share of Heaven


    So Free For Giving
    Thanks Giving New

    So Wise Indeed to
    Be More Fully Truly Human
    Alive Naked, Enough, Whole, CoMPLeTE NoW Yet

    Returning to the ‘Other World’ for the Big Wish of my
    Wife to Purchase a New SUV that i Don’t Need Where
    i Live Now; Never the Less, Part of Love is Understanding

    That We aRE ALL Unique Individual Human Multi-UniVerses Indeed

    So We Drove Many Miles in Heavy Traffic, Waiting Through Car Accidents

    Happening in front of Us Spending Several Hours with the Car Sales Person who

    Didn’t Even Have Any Cars to Sell Yet What was on Paper in a World Where

    There isn’t Nearly As Much Stuff We Can and Will touch to Buy and Sell

    Anyway it Reminded me of What it Meant to Be “A New World

    Man” And What it Means to Return As An “Old World Man”

    Where the Garden of Eden is No Myth Nor

    Is Naked, Enough, Whole, Complete

    The Good News is i’ve
    Convinced my Wife to
    Get A SUV that is Ten Thousand
    Dollars Cheaper, Hehe, The Better
    News is the New 2023 Model Probably Won’t
    Be Available till Many Months Away Meanwhile
    The Car that Works Perfectly Enough for me Stays Hehe…

    Where of Course That Car is Naked, Enough, Whole, Complete
    Enough for me Now No Matter How many Scratches it May Get Until

    Then Just

    From Point

    A to Be in One Peace hehe…

    It’s True This is the Way i Look
    At me And Life And As Much of Existence
    As i Possibly Will Now Naked, Enough, Whole Complete God For Real Now

    Not Waiting Already Arrived Already CoMe Returned Back to Staycation Eternally Now…

    If i could have Heard This From Someone When i Was Young in NuMBeRS And Actually
    Understood And Actually Put it into Action And Eternally Experience Heaven then at Say



    True At
    age 16 i would
    Have Felt Eternally
    Young as Soul at 61
    as i Do Now As Truly

    16 Wasn’t Nearly As Sweet
    As 61 the Real Life Heaven Experience
    Within Inhaling this Peace Exhaling This Love Now
    For Real Just Giving, Sharing, Caring, Healing Free

    For those With
    Wings Enough
    Still to hear

    A MeSSaGE
    Of Truly Good
    News Now mY FRiEnD

    This is my Free Donation
    to You it Won’t Feed You
    It Won’t Clothe You All it

    May Possibly Do is Spark
    A Tiny Flame of Soul New

    If Any Light At All mY FRiEnD

    And True This Story Will be a
    Gift to Someone With EYes and Ears to

    See and
    Hear Just Another
    MeSSaGE in a Bottle
    Sent in The Biggest Ocean Bible
    Humans Create Now Online ToGeTHeR Free..:)


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